Optimism may be draining but it gets you through the day...

I complained last post about how much being optimistic "without cause" can be such a pain and draining. I know that the outlook on the economy has been dark for a while now. I know that I have been looking for a full-time job since last May and i know plenty of my friends have found jobs since graduation as of late. Maybe I just need to relax and go with the flow. I'm still young and i'll have plenty of time to work in my life(gah, i sound like my father). Life throws you curve balls at every turn. There's no way to predict what is really going to happen. (one reason i hate the idea of a psychic) I've had job opportunities where i've known someone who works for the particular company. I've gotten pretty high on my hopes to get each position only to crash down when I find out that the vice president's 3rd cousin actually gets the position. This is what drains me. I'm positive 85% of the time. I know everything will work out the way it is supposed to. However, I don't understand why it makes sense for me to wait this long. What's wrong with me? Why did some of my friends graduate in December and already have jobs? I have the diploma plus an additional 2 internships worth of experience. Doesn't that make me a better candidate? I sometimes don't understand what hr directors are looking for. I'm not even getting interviews. If I was interviewing for jobs, then it would be different. I'd be ok with the failure because I know they didn't reject me just because of something on a piece of paper. ok, i'm done venting.. for now

Optimism slowly drains you

I can only be positive for so long. With every publication pointing out the obvious dreaded state that we're in, I can't help but slip into a downward spiral towards pessimism.. The front page of the Careers section of my local Paper just flat out said there are no jobs for the 20 somethings b/c the 30 somethings with more experience are taking lower income jobs to stay afloat.. so these 20 somethings (me and my friends) are forced to either a)stay in school by taking out loans and coming out in a few years with more debt than ever (b)move in with the parental units or (c)move over seas to find jobs abroad.. This just blows.. I've been looking for 10 months and all I have to show for it are 2 internships that have not and will not turn into permanent full-time employment. Now yes, it could be a lot worse.. I have no kids, no wife.. no one depending on me to make a living but me... but with the way retirement ages are going up.. i wait any longer and i'll be working until i'm effing 90...I'm just tired of the crap.. ready for the economy to turn around.. and ready for all these bastards in the media explaining how bad it really is, all-day everyday. All you are really doing is scaring people half to death so that the small amount of money they do have.. stays in their pockets thus not stimulating the economy... I'm done venting.. maybe i'll wake up on the right side of the bed tomorrow...