Optimism may be draining but it gets you through the day...

I complained last post about how much being optimistic "without cause" can be such a pain and draining. I know that the outlook on the economy has been dark for a while now. I know that I have been looking for a full-time job since last May and i know plenty of my friends have found jobs since graduation as of late. Maybe I just need to relax and go with the flow. I'm still young and i'll have plenty of time to work in my life(gah, i sound like my father). Life throws you curve balls at every turn. There's no way to predict what is really going to happen. (one reason i hate the idea of a psychic) I've had job opportunities where i've known someone who works for the particular company. I've gotten pretty high on my hopes to get each position only to crash down when I find out that the vice president's 3rd cousin actually gets the position. This is what drains me. I'm positive 85% of the time. I know everything will work out the way it is supposed to. However, I don't understand why it makes sense for me to wait this long. What's wrong with me? Why did some of my friends graduate in December and already have jobs? I have the diploma plus an additional 2 internships worth of experience. Doesn't that make me a better candidate? I sometimes don't understand what hr directors are looking for. I'm not even getting interviews. If I was interviewing for jobs, then it would be different. I'd be ok with the failure because I know they didn't reject me just because of something on a piece of paper. ok, i'm done venting.. for now